3 years later...

The last time I blogged on here was October 2012.
Just a few things have happened since then. I won't elaborate much more than lists. :)

- We had a baby boy in January 2013. He's 2 now. His name is Coleman Daniel Lee.
- When Coleman was just 5 months old, we found out we were pregnant again!!
- In August 2013, Coleman and I got into a car accident, we bought a van, Chris lost his job and we moved to a different house.
- In January 2014, the day after Coleman's 1st birthday, we moved back to Missouri! Chris had gotten a job at the jail where he works now. Whew!
- In March 2014, we had another baby boy. His name is Caeden David. He's almost a year and a half now!
- Just recently, Chris has decided to join the Air Force. We're waiting on transcripts so that he can go to MEPS and then off to Basic and Tech School!

I think those are the main highlights!

Vent

Is it just me or do we all have those people in our lives whose main life goal seems to be to make sure that you're miserable no matter what?

We have someone like that in our lives.

I will spare details but sometimes it feels like neverending CRAP that we can do nothing about. I'm so tired of it I'd like to rip heads off and puke down their throats. Seriously.

I cannot take it anymore.

Update.

Wow! It's been awhile.

Chris and I have moved to a house! We found us a cute little 2 bedroom home not too far from where we were living before. I can still walk to work and we are close enough to everything else to make it worthwhile. It's the perfect little home for us and our little one....when he gets here! In the meantime, come visit us! We're here!

Which by the way, in case you weren't already aware....we are having a little BOY! At first I was a little freaked out about having a boy because I have NO IDEA what to do with a boy! I was 8 when my brother was born and didn't help at all with changing his diaper, feeding him, etc, etc, etc. We were just too young. I know that when he gets here it will all come naturally and I'll be his expert. :)

His Daddy and I are very excited about him being here. We are eager to meet him and watch him grow and are already praying for him, his life and his future bride.

By the way, his full name will be Coleman Daniel Lee Morgan. And no, Cole is not an acceptable nickname.
Coleman was the name that Chris and I agreed on, Daniel is after my Daddy, and Lee is a family name on Christopher's side.

I'm in the last week of my second trimester now. My pregnancy has been alright. I'm tired all the time and am very hormonal. I frequently feel yucky, but nowhere near the way I felt during the first trimester!
I don't really crave anything in particular....in fact, most of my food cravings haven't changed at all. However, Chris got me a Wild Cherry Pepsi today on accident and that sounds wonderful right now!

It's after 3 in the morning as I sit here and type this up. We got a new bed this week and were up late setting it up. Who knew that a bed could be so complicated? Then we made a quick Wal-Mart trip (I"m sure we set a record for ourselves) and after getting home and feeling how wonderful it felt outside, we got out our lawn chairs and sat on our porch in the dark until 2 in the morning. After going to bed, I couldn't sleep so I got up and showered and here I am now. I really should get some sleep but am just not feeling it right now. I will most definitely pay for it in the morning!

I am still really loving being married to Christopher. Marriage is HARD but it is much easier when you know you married the person that God intended for you from the beginning. It also doesn't hurt that he's my best friend and has been for years! Isn't God's plan the BEST? I probably don't tell Chris enough but I love him and all that he does for Coleman and myself. I love how much he loves me and isn't afraid to express that love to me. I"m a pretty lucky girl!

Chris's family recently moved nearby.. I still miss my own parents and siblings greatly but am happy to have some family so close. We are very blessed to have such good families. 

Hmmm....I really should keep up with this more often. I don't write on it enough! :)

Negativity

I am eliminating negativity from my life. I'm tired of drama, negative comments, and discouragement. We don't need that. We don't want that.

I'm tired it not being able to enjoy myself, my pregnancy and most of all my husband.

I have no problem hurting feelings of those who have hurt us. If I delete you on Facebook, or don't talk to you in person, then it's because you are bringing me down. I don't have to put up with it...and I won't. I'm tired of being a doormat. I'm tired of being run over time and time again. I'm not putting up with it anymore.

We are putting on a positive attitude. We are taking care of ourselves and the life that is growing inside of me. There will always be negativity in the world, but my home does not have to be a negative place. I want my child to feel safe, secure, and loved...and we can't give them that security if we don't have it ourselves and we are taking care of that now.

So long negativity. You are not welcome here.

Pregnancy Update

Well, we are 9 weeks today! I've had a fairly easy pregnancy thus far...just a lot of nausea, fatigue, and a but of irritability. Oh, and weight gain. Yuck.

I know we announced really early that we were pregnant but we have a lot of faith that the Lord will protect us and our little one. Plus, if something bad were to happen, I would rather people know and we would be able to seek comfort in the best of places.

On a brighter note, there are 2 other women at church that are also pregnant and due exactly 1 and 2 weeks before me!! It had been so nice to compare notes with them and seek wisdom from them (they both have one already).

My brother and sisters are very excited about our news. They keep asking when we find out the gender and when he/she is coming. It's very fun.

Keep praying for us my friends. Keep posting for a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby. Keep praying for Chris as he has to deal with my fatigue and mood. Keep praying that we will be good parents and teach our children about the love of Jesus in our walk and talk.

A Baby is Coming!

We're going to have a baby! Our due date is mid-January.

Chris and I are so very excited.

We told our parents last week, after we found out that we were pregnant. We told the rest of our family and friends tonight as we couldn't keep it a secret any longer!

Our siblings are SO excited. The screaming and carrying on that happened for the next few hours was almost more than we could handle! We are so very blessed to have brothers and sisters who love us and are excited with us!

We're only five weeks along and I am well aware that the first 12 weeks are the most dangerous for our little one. However, I have faith that God is going to protect us and our child. Please pray for us as we navigate these next 7 weeks.

I wish I had more time (and energy) to tell our story but alas, I will save that for another day.

With much love,

Leah

They told us before we were married that the first year was the hardest. I didn’t believe them. “How could the year after you’re first married be the hardest when you’re so in love?” I thought to myself.

Oh boy. They were right.

I understand it now. You go from the single life where you come and go as you please, you spend money however you want to, you sleep by yourself diagonally across your bed, you set your alarm to go off 20 minutes before you actually need to so you can hit the snooze alarm several times, you are responsible for you and only you. Then you get married and you are responsible and accountable to someone else. You learn to share a bed, a bathroom, and other living space. I thought it would be much like living with sisters but it is most definitely not.

Our first year definitely had it’s ups and downs.

We moved 4 times before the end of the year. Once to our apartment in St. Robert, once to Indiana, and twice after the initial move to Indiana. In St. Robert, we lived a mere 0.4 miles from my job and 1 mile from Christopher’s job. Our schedules matched up and we were able to eat lunch together every day. We bought a truck with the intention of only using it for a few miles a day.

Then came the decision to move to Indiana. The next 5 months were AWFUL. We lived with family (not exactly nice for a newlywed couple) and had to learn how to live with them AND each other. It was difficult, very very difficult and yet it made us stronger and made us love each other more.

I spent 6 weeks jobless when we first moved to Indiana and it was very rough on us financially. Chris had decent job but we knew that for the time being we couldn’t live on his income alone. And I was BORED. Finally, after many days of combing the classifieds and searching the internet, I found a job that helped us get back on track. I loved the people, but hated the hours. It decreased the time we were able to spend together, sometimes we had completely opposite schedules. We knew I needed to find something else. Now I have a good job.

Shortly after that we were able to move to Seymour, where we attended a great church. We found a GOOD apartment at a CHEAP price. We were able to pay our bills on time and build up our savings account.

We dealt with the difficulty of Chris’s schedule. He went from working 6am-4pm and then some overnight shifts (pure torture for me) and then finally 7am to 5pm. We get home at about the same time.

We learned that even though we DO know what we’re talking about, people may not listen to us.

Then we started to learn more about the people around us and learn that we were wrong in our perceptions of them. It’s earth-shattering thinking that someone you know is one way and it turns out that you were completely wrong. It broke our hearts.

I had to learn that my parents aren’t going to be able to fix EVERYTHING. We also learned that our parents are not perfect.

We learned that even though we’ve moved out and are hours away, our siblings can still annoy the heck out of us. And sometimes it’s just better to communicate our issues to them so they know when they’ve hurt you in some way, even though it was unintentional.

We learned that neither one of us is perfect like we thought the other was before we were married, and that it’s just me that’s perfect (kidding!). We learned to communicate our feelings and frustrations and not to go to bed when we’re hurt, angry, or frustrated.

We learned to lean on each other. It’s so easy for me to go to another room and cry my heart out but sometimes it’s okay to let Chris hold me as I cry.

We dealt with terrifying, vivid nightmares as a side effect of birth control (ask me about chicken babies, blood drives, worms, and stalkers sometime). We also learned that my body is going to retaliate against me for going OFF said birth control. We learned that even though our parents were able to get pregnant right away, we have to wait on the Lord’s timing…no matter how badly we wanted it to happen 2 months ago.

This past year has had it's ups and downs, it's highs and lows. However, I wouldn't trade the love that Christopher and I share for anything else this world has to offer.

Happy Anniversary Christopher Aaron. I love you!